If you came to this post because you thought that it was going to be an expose on the negative aspects of being a holistic health coach, you came to the wrong place. The truth is, I am a holistic health coach, as well as a certified stress management coach. This is actually my story and it’s my moment to “come out of the proverbial health closet”….so to speak.
This is actually the story of my journey from the last few years….years that were full of more than their fair share of challenges. Truth be said, I faced some pretty hefty chronic stress over the last three years. And although I would’ve loved to have been the type of health coach who managed all of her stress perfectly and had her crap together, that just wasn’t the case.
So what did the last few years bring?
I lost my Mom to cancer. My husband and I separated, attempted to reconcile, separated again….and ultimately divorced. In 2015, I moved not once, but twice….in a span of one month. I got sick from the stress and even lost my voice for 6 months and could barely get out of bed. I faced a whole lot of financial challenges. AND I started a whole new career path.
So no stress there, right?
Now, let me set the record straight….this is not a “woe is me” type of pity party. And I don’t want sympathy from anyone. In spite of the immense amount of stress from the last couple of years, I learned a LOT about myself and how amazingly strong I really am. There have been some amazing and beautiful things that have come from the stress of the last few years! Beauty really does come from ashes!
But what I want to share with you today, comes with a lot of feelings of guilt and shame. Because I am a health coach….and so I should know better, right? You see in the midst of the stress of the last few years, I have gained weight.
In fact, I am currently at 223 lbs. Boy, that is not easy to write, and it certainly isn’t easy to share with the world. But there is my truth in black and white for the world to see.
I know why it happened. Part of the weight is a result of dysfunction in my HPA Axis (hypothalamus, pituitary and adrenal). This is what so many people think of as adrenal fatigue…but it really involves more than the adrenals. My poor little HPA axis has been working overtime! And my hormones are completely out of whack as a result of chronic stress.
But that is not the only factor. During this extended period of stress, I wasn’t taking care of myself the way that I should’ve been. I wasn’t always getting enough sleep because my mind was racing at night. And although I was cooking good, healthy meals 60% of the time….that other 40% was not such great food. I was using food to soothe myself and to manage stress….just like so many others do.
I was at my lowest point health wise a little over a year ago. That was when I could barely get out of bed. I was struggling with some depression on top of everything else as a result of all of the stress.
But, here is where things began to change for me. Last year I made a commitment to focus on nurturing myself and helping myself get well. Before I could begin thinking about the weight, I had to get myself to a place where I was mentally and emotionally feeling better.
I worked on making small changes every day….and those changed paid off.
Some of the changes that I made:
- Improved my eating so that I am now cooking whole, real food meals 90% of the time.
- Increased the amount of fruits and vegetables I’m eating.
- Am eating mostly grain free.
- Significantly reduced the amount of refined sugar I am eating each day.
- Began a meditation practice everyday for at least 15 minutes.
- Learned to say no without feeling guilty, especially when I was busy or feeling overwhelmed
- Gave myself permission to be human and imperfect.
- Started doing 5k walks
- Learned to really listen to my body so that I would recognize the signs of excess stress
- Began supporting healthy sleep patterns.
- Allowed myself to rest without guilt if I was feeling too fatigued.
Already, I’m feeling so much better than I would’ve thought possible a year ago. So now it’s time to share my experience and also share the next step….losing the weight.
I have begun to challenge myself with exercise. I’ll be sharing more about what I’m doing to be active in the next few weeks. I will also be sharing all of my results with you!
For me, it’s about allowing my body to be as healthy as it can be. It’s about being active and thriving. It’s also about being accountable….and by making this journey public, you can’t get much more accountable than that! It’s also about taking my power back by stepping out from behind the shame and the guilt. Taking action and making changes! It’s about being real, transparent and honest about the good…and the bad.
So although I am not the healthiest holistic health coach….right now, that is changing! And I’m bringing y’all along for my journey to see just what kind of healing the body can do!
I’m going to be sharing updates here on the blog. And I will be sharing daily updates on Facebook and Instagram…so be sure to follow me there!